Monday, 9 October 2017


Suatu masa seorang mempertanyakan
"Topeng apa yang kau kenakan?"

Suatu masa aku menyatakan
"Suatu kehidupan"

Suatu masa aku berhadap-hadapan dengan Tuhan
Dengan janji tanpa saksi

Kemudian datang seribu wajah menawan
"Kau adalah Aku yang kau sembunyikan"

Suatu masa aku datang dengan kebebasan
Kemudian seorang menatapku heran
"Rupamu mengerikan"

Thursday, 5 October 2017


When he starts to deal with devil, he sees nothing other than ugly
As mirror reflects beauty only cruelty

As he only taste pain in every meal
he becomes lost from a concept like love

Imprison me in his gravity
A freedom would only delivers me torture

Even i've signed help underneath my whisper
None could ever decoded my frequencies

Or even there're ears hearken my plead,
They would suffer a death penalty
Thus like a ghost story, my pain is unreal

Tuesday, 25 July 2017


how to send your thoughts frequencies through your dreams?

a signal as close to a deity vision
or a devilish whisper

for some of us who love solitude
dreams are mystical way to communicate

because not like a postcard that could be saved and memorized
dreams are meant to be forgotten

i could send my thoughts to yours temporarily
without a bound necessarily involved

that way we could forever in solitary

now how to send my thoughts frequencies through your dreams?
no worry
all that i am and all that i ever was will all disappear

Saturday, 6 May 2017

Orphan Place

Now i know what it feels like to be an orphan
How it feels like to be confused within sore heart

Between two who say right
I'm lost in a family with faith which is lacked

A fight between two brothers of mine
I'm living in country of orphans

Where war keeping scores to take more causalities
Of the idea of how God and religion taught me peace

And i can't do nothing
To prove the evidence when my parents taught me to love your enemy
And I almost forgot what they have told me exactly

What i remember most
That love is above all
Yet you keep protest my faith and threaten my stepbrothers

My darling all moslem,
we can't ask what is blur to our parent anymore
We can't asked Muhammad to clear our dirty sight

Dear parents, we miss you to tell us the bedtime stories of peace of humankind
Dear parents, we miss how you defend us from all devilish promise
Dear parents, we miss you to turn on light and told that everything will be alright

Monday, 24 April 2017

Negara dan Agama

siapa yang tidak kecewa
ketika jiwa jadi saksi sejarah
negara jadi korban retorika aroganisme aggota agama
mencemari nama Tuhanku di muka dunia

siapa yang tidak kecewa
ketika rongga keadilan merekah
kemudian diancam pertumpahan darah

Ekstrimis fundamentalis
Berkata atas nama ayat suci
seharusnya mustahil agama mengacau perdamaian
Lalu mengapa seorang habib diagungkan?

Seorang manusia dengan jiwa iblis
Lebih dipilih ketimbang malaikat berparas anjing

Siapa yang tidak kecewa
Saat kebaikan disabotase setan

Monday, 20 March 2017

Lady of Eden

mama never asked me to be a billionaire
nor a president nor an astronaut or to be an engineer
She only asked me to finish my study so i cloud be anyone i pleased

She never asked me to build her a new fancy house to live in
She said to the rest of her life the house she fought for to build with her husband is more than just perfect

She calls me when i far away
And take the consequences to be alone day after day to see me graduate
And by knowing here i'am well and have a good life,
Her loneliness doesn't match to her happiness

And every time i asked what she was doing
She answered that she was watching television

She never buy some cloths, shoes or bags like she used to when she was younger
When papa could buy her some pair of those pretty things she likes

After papa's gone, She never put on make up ever since not even a lipstick
she said...
"Who would see me, if it's not your father?"

Why don't you just ask me something?
because i'd love to give you everything

I would like to be anything you want
I would build you fancy house with thousands of flowers around
I want to see you having a great holiday not just watching television
I want you to wear expensive branded clothes, shoes and bags, because you are still beautiful

Maybe you thought that someday i will marry a man and become someone's wife
Left you behind taking care of my own family
but if you just know what is my heart desire
I will forever want to be your daughter

Sunday, 19 March 2017


I heard caterpillar decides to begin her metamorphic phase when she could not bears tears any longer
That time she would wraps herself thread by thread to commit suicide
Dies in her own isolation, she makes a cocoon

To be not noticed, the silence she tried
Yet if your ears good enough, you would hear she cried
Every noon and every the light of moon

I wonder, what possibly made her sad?
Some say, it all the matter of love
She weep in a case of broken heart

And as the closest moment of final breath, as she comes into a near death
God would appears and wipe her tears
He would forgives and grant her apology

At the moment where all fully peace and heaven's beauty
He gives her wings and a reborn to gain more bliss

Thus every time she flies in every winds against
She would loosen her memories
So then, until the time has back to let her rest, she has completely forgotten the loved she had once

The butterflies mend to fly only to forget
Because without a love from anyone, she could joy her death back